So I am taking several classes, and I'm doing better in college than I did in High School. What is up with that?
So I was looking at my grades/ my report card and I am passing with As and Bs. In High School I was just barely passing with a borderline on C/D grade. So this is good. I am doing better in school, I'm having fun, and I'm succeeding in my classes. But I feel like I'm not succeeding in another area and that is my spiritual walk. I can kind of see why many people stop walking with the LORD when they enter college. I am overloaded with homework, and it seems like there isn't enough time to do anything other than school work. But I am making myself set my priorities straight. For instance, I used to do so much volunteer work people thought I was crazy. But now I can't do that stuff anymore because of all of my work. It is paying off, but I miss spending hours in the library shelving books, checking things in, helping people find a specific book, making suggestions, helping with summer reading program, and everything that I did. But I am still going to youth group and church.
No need to worry about that. I won't give that up.
The only thing that I don't like about still living at home is the noise. It is literally almost like everyone is yelling no matter what!!!!! So I have to either tell everyone to be quiet or I have to use any time I can get at the school to do my homework. But that's life I guess. A friend of mine (more like an older brother) is leaving the country at the end of this week. I am pretty excited to spend time with his wife and two little boys, and I can't wait but I'm gonna miss being able to talk to him. He is really knowledgeable when it comes to the bible. He is actually on the list of candidates to become our next pastor. Yeah, if you know my dad you know he is really knowledgeable when it comes to the bible, but I can't talk to him. Every time I become interested in something my dad immediately starts shooting everything about it down. That's probably why I deal with depression and thinking that I'm not good enough to do anything. But I can talk to my friend. He really is like an older brother to me. When I was little I was at his house all of the time because my brother and his brother were really good friends. My brother would ask me if I wanted to go with him to his friends house because at that time I hadn't really become friends with anyone yet. Well I would go over there and they would get me into playing with something (I had a very strange obsession with magnets and they had these magnet kits that you could build with, so that's usually what I was messing with) and when I got into this absent-minded state they would sneak off. Well after awhile the older boys would come home and play with me until my brother and theirs showed back up. So I have this connection with two of the boys more than the others. My friend is leaving, and once he leaves I'll have something to look forward to.
Besides that my Grandma and I are going to see The Nutcracker soon. I want to see the ballet. I used to ballet, but had to quit because we couldn't afford for me to keep going to classes. But I have this obsession with ballet. I have gotten over the magnet obsession and have one with ballet now. My best friend, some of her other friends and I are going to The Nutcracker and the Four Realms soon. We are trying to get tickets right now. I can't wait to see her again. I miss her so much! I still deal with depression, and if I start getting upset, or anything like that she balances me out. She tells me that what I'm thinking is stupid and I know better, and if that doesn't help she finds a way to make her opinion more important than everyone else's.
So what do you think? Is my life changing for the better?
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